venomwolves

I'm not sure how in-tune anyone on here is with the downfall of P!ATD (i.e. Brendon! At The Disco), but ever since I saw this post recounting how... trainwreckish Brendon Urie is doing with this new album and tour and such. I just can't help but yearn for some kind of fix-it fic for this whole shitshow...

Not in a P!ATD never broke up and everything was always peaches and sunshine way, but in a Brendon hits rock bottom and goes soul-searching, trying to figure out what went wrong, reevaluating his past relationships with ex bandmembers, etc way........ I HATE that I still have feelings for this trash human, like I so badly want to BELIEVE that there is still a real person under that giant forehead that is very lonely and regrets the decisions that brought him to be this washed up generic radio hit guy. I want a friends to enemies to lovers Brendon/Ryan slow burn. In FACT... I need a Ghost of Girlfriends Past (2009) fusion fic in which Brendon is assertively confronted by the ghosts of his past band members who show him his looming popstar drug overdose death, which makes him realize what a shit he's become and is driven to right his wrongs and such. It's for my health. Sorry.

The weirdest part of my visceral need for this hypothetical fanfiction to exist is that I've never been a P!ATD ff enjoyer. I've read a few in relation to MCR/FOB fics, but it's just not a fandom I've ever had my entire dick and heart in enough to scavenge fic for. But now that I'm in absolute need of a very specific fic, there's hardly anyone out there writing for the fandom anymore, considering the appeal is gone with how far removed the guys are from each other at this point... so all I can really do is be left dissatisfied with the reality of it all 🤔

Sighhh.