venomwolves

Hello, it's been a while.

I'm terribly bored stuck at home with !! GET READY!! COVID! Damn, who could have guessed! Though I've been very conscious about this whole thing, it was brought into the whole house by my Dad's friend who conveniently tested positive AFTER he infected everyone in the house :^) it's been about 10 days and I'm pretty close to completely recovered, but the last dregs of stuffiness keeps holding on for some reason. It wasn't actually that bad in general, though. Pretty much a regular cold for me. Unfortunately, my parents look like they're gonna need another week or two before they stop acting like they've been hit by a bus, which I find very annoying. Part of me wishes I had more sympathy for them, but I'm honestly so unbelievably sick of both of them... times like this makes me wish I would have moved out already, but unfortunately I'm waiting till the spring to worry about that. And though I could technically go out at this point as it's been 10 days and I'm not showing explicit covid symptoms, as I said, I'm still slightly stuffy and would hate to spread this around even more... I won't have a choice by Saturday, though, as I need to make money.

IN OTHER NEWS, I impulse bought a pair of roller skates. Very oddly hyper-fixated on the idea of roller skating right now, despite the fact that I could hardly stay upright on them as a kid. However, now that I've ordered a pair, I'll have no choice but to make myself half decent at it. They're a chrome-y "holographic" color with blue wheels, toe stop and laces, very fun AND on sale. I'll have them by Thursday, so hopefully I'll be feeling ok to go out by then.

Also, A recap on my art life? Did a few commissions this past holiday season for a fic I somehow ended up wrapped up in the making of through a MCR book club discord server that I pretty much never participate in.

a cartoon pencil sketch of Frank Iero and Gerard Way cuddling on a couch

a cartoon pencil sketch of Gerard Way and Frank Iero, who's holding a baby bundled in a parka and wearing large sunglasses. they are standing in a gas station isle and Frank is scowling at Gerard while Gerard is avoiding eye contact and pressing his index fingers together sheepishly

The fic is Pinkish by Antspaul if anyone was curious. It's a kid fic, obviously. And very unreliably narrated, which I found somewhat suspenseful. I think it has just one more chapter to go till it's finished, which will be up sometime this week, I believe?

After that, I did a mini holiday exchange with a dear friend I made through vigorously complementing their fanfiction a few years ago. I'm still not entirely sure how well I fulfilled their gift, tbh, but I certainly tried very hard!

a cartoon colored illustration of Frank Iero and Gerard Way facing each other and holding hands with small smiles and vampire fangs. they're flamboyantly dressed in ambiguous period clothing. surrounding them is a mistletoe wreath

This was made with "campy vampires" in mind, which was one of their prompts. Though this is obviously not objectively bad, I'm just not entirely sure how much a pulled off the "camp" part. I don't know. Does this qualify as camp? Even if it does, camp is such a vast term and I don't think this is the flavor they were thinking of when they thought of the prompt... And though they obviously expressed that they liked it when I revealed it to them, it's kind of impossible to tell if they genuinely like it... idk! Anyway, what they made me was like. the fic of my dreams, so that didn't make me feel much better about this like. I feel shown up slightly, lmao. I know it's not about that, but I just feel bad, I wish I had the energy to have picked something a bit more ambitious from their list, but well. Look at me now, fully art blocked!

I also got commissioned by an internet friend to make a "guest page" for their original web comic, like... back in September, lmaoo. And it's still hardly started :) it's due in march so I still have plenty of time, but DAMN the art block be hitting so hard with this bitch. I have thumbnails for it and know exactly what I want, but I just can't execute it. Like I've tried so many times, it hurts yall. every time I start at it, it's just too,, ?? Like I can see that I'm trying too hard, and you see this REAL issue here is that I have incredibly low standards for what art I personally enjoy, like quality wise. And TO ME I peaked with the shitty little thumbnails I did for it, which is so bad. like NO!!! that's not how paid commissions should look, stop!! yet the loose simplicity of it is like PERFECTION in my eyes, it's so bad and I CAN'T replicate it bigger, which is an issue because the original is a miniscule pencil sketch. And well, anyway. I'll continue trying to get that how I want, even if it means pathetically trying to trace the thumbnails digitally *facepalm*

I THINK that was all I wanted to update and complain on. Thanks for reading my rambles.